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No one could have prepared me for how much I would love my sweet girl. There was no way to understand the feeling of never wanting to let her out of my sight. Wherever I am, whatever I am doing she is always there in the back of my mind. And we have all heard that having a child changes your life, but I never expected this. I feel like I am a different friend, wife, sister, daughter, teacher, person. And now I have to leave her.

Returning to work has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Although I am only working four days a week, I am so sad to leave J. I don't worry about her because I know she is in good hands, but it breaks my heart to say goodbye to her.  On the first day I cried to the first four people who spoke to me. And I can't stop crying when I put her to sleep. I have to hold back tears just thinking about leaving her. But tonight I have this 'dance party' to make me feel a little bit better.

B and I talked about me going down to half time next year and that is looking sooo good right about now. I'm crossing my fingers!